July 4, 2014
I guess this is a call for help, a big fat shout out to anyone who can give me the advice, support or kick up the backside I need to get back on track with my eating.
Those of you who have been following my blog for a while will know that despite the apparent success I have in achieving my running related goals my eating habits and behaviours are a constant challenge for me. It’s not like I don’t know how to eat well, I just struggle to do it consistently.
A few months ago I made the decision to quit weightwatchers, a programme that had helped me to shift over 3 stone of my baby weight. I wrote a post at the time called Why I am Quitting Weightwatchers explaining why, but I guess it was mainly because I had out grown the system and didn’t believe in it any more. It hadn’t made me a better eater, it hadn’t made me love my body more, it hadn’t helped me get to goal, in fact my weight was yoyoing the same 3lbs for close to 3 months so I decided to pack it in.
At first I felt a sense of freedom and empowerment and I began eating more of the foods I enjoy and not feeling guilt for it. I stopped weighing and pointing and calorie counting and instead listened to my body and are until full and a mixture of foods, steering clear from anything too bad for me.
My weight in case you were wondering stabilised for a good few months and I stopped weighing myself. Everyone around me said how good I was looking and that I had lost so much weight, when in fact I hadn’t, but my shape had changed. I just felt more in control and less stressed and obsessed about food.
However over the last couple of weeks I have noticed that the weight is creeping up again, despite the fact I am more active than ever. I am training 6-8 times a week in various capacities, and also running around doing various bits and bobs for the new business.
But perhaps that is where the problem is. I have no set routine at the moment and I am often eating on the go, and not sitting down for meals. I am grabbing things to give me energy and often reaching for the biscuit tin to satisfy my hunger. I am starting to go through cycles of guilt again, eating for the sake of it and not even enjoying some of the foods I am eating. The other thing is I never feel adequately fuelled for my busy lifestyle or my running.
I know I am not alone in this. So many women I talk to say it is their diet that lets them down.
My days of dieting are over, as are my days of wanting to be slim. I know I will never go on a fad diet again, but I would like to feel like I have my poor eating under control again, I guess I am just not motivated enough to do it alone.
I would love to find a nutritionist to work with, not only for me but for all the women in the same boat as me. I want to find a professional that understands the nutritional needs of overweight but active women, someone who can help us find balance without having to cut things out of our diets completely.
Does such a person exist?
In less than 2 months I will be competing in tough mudder billed as the hardest obstacle race in the world and I feel like if I don’t regain some kind of order with my food intake I will simply not be able to get around the course.
My training is progressing but my body is still about 2 stone heavier than it needs to be, and that is not in terms of BMI but more about WIWTB (where I want to be)
I know you can’t out train a poor diet and that abs are made in the kitchen, but no amount of motivational info graphics are helping right now.
Is there anyone out there that can help?
Anyone at all?