December 30, 2013
I am writing this post with a thumping headache and we are now two whole days away from my evening of excessive drinking.
I have just been out for my 5k #onebigfatrun (a day late I must add) and it seriously almost nearly killed me.
I guess I’ve always had a problem with booze since I got drunk at my 16th birthday party on thunderbirds and was sick over the garden fence into my neighbours garden. I’ve never drunk responsibly. During my late twenties and early thirties it hit it’s peak, with disposable income, a wide circle of friends, holidays abroad and nobody to hold me to account.
Although these days I don’t drink that often when I do I tend to drink too much. I get carried away and don’t know when to stop.
Having said that I had a great night on Saturday with friends and family at a gathering to play charades etc. I drank a fair bit ( a litre of white rum my OH would have you believe, I reckon it was closer to half but still that’s too much) but I didn’t feel out of control, I wasn’t sick, or loud, or aggressive, or obnoxious…and I didn’t even cry (which is often quite typical of me) I had a great night.
The real problem though is the hangover…. Jeeeeez!!
It’s taken me two whole days to feel almost human again and that’s just not on. I am annoyed at myself for not doing my #onebigfatrun yesterday and it reminds me of all the things I’ve missed because of a hangover.
I always take a break from drinking in January anyway, but I think this year I’m going to try for a whole year sober. I kinda did it last year anyway when I was pregnant with Rose. I stopped drinking the moment I found out (at 6 weeks gone) and had two halfs of Guinness over Xmas when I was 8 and a half months gone. So I know I can do it.
I want to do it through choice though this time and not through a sense of obligation or for the benefit of someone else.
My OH doubts I can do it as he thinks I have a problem. He drinks more frequently than me but in very small amounts and doesn’t like to lose control when drinking so we are never going to see eye to eye on this one.
I have had some amazing years of partying, have a whole heap of funny story’s to tell about crazy nights or weekends fuelled by alcohol, and I wouldn’t take any of it back. But I think enough is enough.
My body deserves better as I start heading towards 40, and seeing as I can’t seem to do anything in moderation my liver clearly needs a break.
Anyone else thinking of having a booze break this January?